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You’d never let me be anything that you didn’t understand
You dressed me up as a fool everyday just to show you can
I never picked to be here now I never wanted to
Now I cant even use my name to get solace through
Chorus:
I don’t care if you don’t like my ways
I didn’t build this life for you
And all these things I hide inside
I hide because of you
Verse:
You think that you know the best for me
Well I’d hate to strain your mind
We are all made in different ways
Ways you cant define
So why don’t you take a different path a different look on life?
You are not the only one who can’t sleep tonight
Chorus:
I don’t care if you don’t like my ways
I didn’t build this life for you
And all these things I hide inside
I hide because of you
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Is there something I missed?
Is there something I failed to say?
I’m not one to pretend
Well maybe nothing last anyway
I’ll try to ignore self-defense
I’m just trying to act on what’s true
And I am losing my breath
From chasing after you
If you want me here I am
In a state between a lover and a friend
And I know this has proven true
I am not content without you
Still this keeps pushing on
And I’m afraid I’m falling away
It’s eating me from the inside
For me not to show and only say
You are the one I adore
And each day I only crave more
This conclusion that I’ve come to
I can’t listen, because I don’t want to be without you
When time is of essence
And both fate and love have their say
Who will turn around?
And who will stay
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We’ve always known these days would come
To divide the weak from the strong
Remembrance, just like fingerprints, our memories will always live on
Don’t forget while you are gone
All we are and all we’ve seen
Are the spaces in-between this photograph dream
Chorus:
Maybe someday we’ll leave this town
Drive until the stars in the sky burn out
Let the winds guide us through the city streets
Maybe someday, just you and me
Six of the senses hit at once
To die is to feel alive
And Dali knows the beauty I saw that night
Do what you feel is right
All we are and all we know
Can point us to our past, but only fate will show
If we believe in someday
Time will set us free
Lost with nowhere to be
In this photograph dream
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I don’t know where to begin this end has left me speechless
Because if everything I said can’t make you believe, then you’ll never listen
Chorus:
Give me one good reason
And say that you’re sorry
Verse:
I took you in and gave you all that you needed
But I was just your crutch, second best to your “love”
I will never let that happen again
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Am I falling from what’s right?
Am I living by the verse?
Do you think I’m thinking much too hard?
I am straying from the worst
You can’t save me
Your bedtime stories have lost their love
You can’t change me
You can’t change me
Don’t you tell me what I think
I can’t hear myself anymore
I’m not going to let you pave my way
I’m tired of listening
I’m tired of listening
Advice is advice
And you’re not bound to the way I live my life
All good things meet their end
So let loose and let me live
Break free. Live your life
Break free. See the light
Break free. Feel the light
Break free. Live your life
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I hoped to find you
A changed soul anew at heart
And I only wish you
Would oblige me for I can’t take part
You only see yourself
In your world of unhappiness
You scream that we are wrong
And we’re left in your misery
Are you satisfied with the mess you’ve made?
And why do you insist on making it worse on
You and me
Open up your eyes
Can’t you see?
It’s sucking the life out of you
Forgiveness is limited for the unworthy
You only see yourself
In your world of unhappiness
You scream that we are wrong
And I’m left in your misery
But only we seem to care
So . . . I’ll see you next December
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I can’t be like this
I feel like such a shit
Let’s do what we can do while we still have the time
Why am I doing this?
We do this
Ever-going match of the pigs
I’m proud to win
Check out my badges
Don’t you wish you could be as cool as me?
I wonder if I’ll be here forever
It’s my fault and I know it’s true
No one can satisfy me
No one can live up to my standards
Not even me
Let’s go away to a secret place
And I will lie for you
Forget yourself and all these things
Let it all come down
I’ll try to leave before you start to hold on
Sure I think twice sometimes
Sure I care when it is mine
I just don’t care this time, no!
But I can’t let that happen to me
Not this time
Not to me
I don’t want to be here forever
Loneliness is devouring me
No one can satisfy me
No one can live up to my standards
Not even me
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I’ve been tempted by your beauty time and again
But I don’t know just where you’ve been
And every time I need you he leaves me in doubt
I’m always the last one who finds out
You’ve got to be perfect I need you tonight
I don’t know if I can’t take this flight
Alone with my sentiments of this dying pain
I just don’t know anymore . . .
Chorus:
I’m drawing circles around my head
I feel so low I would rather be dead
I need your love to hold inside me
Why do you have to do this to me?
Verse:
You’re so beautiful when you’re faithful to me
And you’re too innocent and naïve to see
That what he wants is someone he can use
One to toy with left, accost and accused
Chorus:
And I’m struggling to keep love alive
I’m up the plank ready to take the dive
So be the one who we both truly need
someone who won’t leave
Bridge:
Come close
Lay you body next to mine I need you
You need me, why can’t we live the life we want to live?
Why can’t we just be perfect?
You’re so pretty when you’re faithful to me
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I feel fates not on my side
I know nothings right
Come on let me climb inside you
Far away from strangers
Please they don’t understand
I can’t meet their demands
Take my pride and take me from her
Far away from strangers
Chorus:
I’m searching for some answers
And the place where we lost our world can’t be seen
And I don’t need no other lover
So help me give it back to me
Verse:
Orange, orange as the moon that shone
Orange as the clock that glows
As faded as the love we had and let go
Far away from strangers
Chorus:
I’m searching for some answers
And the place where we lost our world can’t be seen
And I don’t need no other lover
So help me give it back to me
Yeah Yeah.
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You always knew it’d never be this way
And all along
You planned to hold on ‘till the daylight came
You always touch me a little more
When I try to get close
You never pushed me away
Just let go
But you’re just floating endlessly
Broken into place
Somewhere deep inside of me
I’ll change all my mistakes
In this God-forsaken place
In this daydream
Chorus:
Waiting for the days
Waiting for a change of pace
(Of missing you)
Wishing you away
Wishing you’d beg me to stay
(Running away from you)
Fire in the sky
Moonlight in your eyes tonight
(Do you fake it? Is it true?)
I see you’re feeling fine
Won’t you tell me I’ll be all right?
Because I’ll be all right, right?
Verse:
I’m regretting a past I can’t relive
Lies I’ve loved, but I can’t forgive
And I awake late at night
I never sleep
I don’t know why
Just leave me alone
There’s nothing more in here
Won’t someone take me home?
Because I’m lost somewhere in this daydream
Chorus
Bridge:
Don’t you deny you were here
I know I’ll find myself in here
You are the worst kind of people
This is the worst kind of love
You are the worst kind of people
Daydreamer awake
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Time has led me through the oceans
And showed me the depths of now
It's only an imbalance in time before the rain changes it's sound
I can't believe the things that have done
Broken thoughts of things that are to come
These are the letters i've kept
In cupboards hidden in the walls
These feelings i've push aside
Longing for the days when i feel alive
But i've giving up my hope
For things that i cannot control
You're only one moment, but please don't leave me alone
I wish that you were still here with me
So we could stop regressing on feelings
Cause you are all that i need
And nothing can stop these emotions
But i don't know what love is
And you don't need someone to bring you down
So i'll be on my way now
But i'll be thinking of you til i drowned myself in my washed dreams
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Our story begins today and we lay our setting where you are
Cause today's your lucky day pig. that's right, this one's for you
Stand up and prepare to hear the sad truth
My breakdown is from what is true inside of you
It's the inability of honest, hypocrisy, stupidity, you show
You are the cause of this animosity
I'm sorry people like you, come and go
Truth has become too clear, realities what i fear
This spells been cast over me, it's forced me numb
I'm too far from the light, i can't find my way home
Well here i am once again, left on my own
There is a place outside the shadows, makes it all disappear
But maybe i don't deserve that, don't deserve them and i'll stay here
Truth has become too clear, realities what i fear
This spells been cast over me, it's forced me numb
We all get like this, it's okay to be like this
I thought we all got like this, i'm not suppose to be like this
God help me, i don't want to be like this
Truth has become too clear, realities what i fear
This spells been cast over me, it's forced me to be numb
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Originally completed in April 2002 and Recorded to two-inch-tape throughout 2001, this album has never before been widely available and captures this young band at its best. Download it for free--with three bonus tracks.
released February 25, 2022
ORIGINAL 2002 ALBUM CREDITS
Cody Kelly - lead guitar
Zack Kelly - drums, percussion, bass
Brian Ullman - rhythm guitar, vocals
Mike Socrates - bass, backing vocals
Additional Musicians
Dave Brooks - additional vocals on tracks 2,3 & 7
Stephen Hawkins - cello on track 10
Bud Kelly - lead guitar on tracks 1,7,8 & 9
David Ullman - additional vocals on track 5
Produced by Dave Brooks and Circle of Willis
Recorded and mixed by Dave Brooks @ Grooveyard Studios in Akron, Ohio
All songs written by Brian Ullman, except 'Plasticity' written by Zack Kelly & Brian Ullman, 'Naked' - written by Nate Pelfrey & Brian Ullman, 'Daydreamer' - written by Chris Metcalf & Brian Ullman
All lyrics written by Brian Ullman, 'Daydreamer' written by Chris Metcalf
Photography: Matt Jackson
Art Direction: Brian Ullman
Design: Christina Holmes, CHolmes Designs
This album is for Bud Kelly, for without him this would not have by been possible. Thank you.
20TH ANNIVERSARY EDITION CREDITS
Additional Musicians:
Bud Kelly - lead guitar on tracks 12
Nate Pelfrey - guitar on track 11
Seth Rock - bass on tracks 11, 12
Alternate Versions of 'Perfect' and 'Without You' recorded at Metro Sync Studios in Cleveland, Ohio
Alternate Version of 'Before You Hold On' recorded at Spider Studios in Olmsted Falls, Ohio
'Numb' and 'None' demos recorded at the Kelly Cabin
'223,' 'Maybe Someday,' 'Perfect,' and 'Your Life,' recorded at home by Brian Ullman
2002 Odeon audience concert recording by Bud Kelly
All songs written by Brian Ullman, except 'None' written by Zack Kelly
Additional Photography: Robin Pasterchek, David Ullman, and Circle Of Willis
"High School Rock Scene" profile written by Mike Altier & Katie Wise. Excerpted from The Visor issue 15, (April 10, 2001) pages 6-7. Archbishop Hoban High School. Akron, Ohio.
Digital package art direction and design by David Ullman
